Our April.

Like always...I am behind on my posts. It's almost the middle of May, and I'm just posting our April events now. But I figured I better get it done, cause I have much more to post in May!

Easter was a good day for us.
We are very loved...and we got spoiled by the Easter Bunny.

Thanks Mom and Dad for making sure the Easter Bunny didn't forget us this year. We got a basket full of goodies! We have been "trying" to eat better and work out...

but a little chocolate here and there can't kill me....right!?

My sweet Family.

And Thanks to the Arnolds, we got the most yummy chocolate eggs, mine was filled with peanut butter that melts in your mouth, and Ryan's was a delightful chocolate mint. I loved mine so much, I actually ate it in all at once...I'm sure that wasn't the best idea, cause my tummy hurt after...but it was just too good, I couldn't stop.


We also celebrated my niece Addison and her mommy's birthday.
They share the same birhtday.

It's always good to be with family...and have yummy food to eat.

"POW"

Ta-da! It's the birthday girl!

And it's official....

We now have a new niece to add to our family!

We just love her so much and

we feel very blessed to finally

have her apart of our forever family.

Daddy and Jessica, isn't she the cutest.

Awww...I love spring.

Can I just have all these flowers, my yard would love them.

This was also a very good day. We got to spend the afternoon at the Salt Lake temple. I do love it there so much, it's so peaceful...and because of that beautiful place...

My family is forever.

I love knowing that.

The magic of Ordinary days.

Is it me or is this time of year so boring! Out of the whole year, January through the end of April is the worst. Not only is there nothing to do, it's still cold outside! I was "Done" with Winter in January! And...it just keeps snowing! It's APRIL...where's my spring? Please come soon.

Because of all the boredom this time of year brings us, we tend to slack on picture taking. We usually only take a few here and there, nothing compared to the million we take the rest of the year. Nothing too exciting has been going on in our life, we're just trying to take one day at a time....and have high hopes for the future. The other day, Ryan had to work late, so I hung out with my cute parents. My mom just loves Hallmark movies and always has a new one for me to watch with her. Her latest one was called "The magic of ordinary days". I didn't expect to like it as much as I did...and I can't get it out of my head. Not only is it a love story (I am such a hopeless romantic), but it's also one of those "feel good" movies....which now-a-days is much needed. After watching this movie, it got me thinking... how I want to enjoy the "magic" of my ordinary days. To try to notice the sweet and simple moments in my life...everyday. The future, to me now is kinda scary...anything can happen. I will never think "that won't ever happen to me" ever again. But after watching the show, I find I can cope with the fear better when I realize the simple happiness's of life and that everyday doesn't have to be scary....and that helps me have high hopes for the future.

"My Beloved brothers and sisters, fear not and be of good cheer. The future is as bright as your faith." -President Thomas S. Monson

As you can tell....I still complain about things...like the cold weather and this awful time of year, but I'm still trying...I'm a work in progress.

One of my daily joys in life is my dear little Ellie. She has been such a blessing to us, as well as a life saver too. She is just so busy and does the craziest things....even on our sad days, we can't help but smile and laugh at her! She is just so wacky! We love her so much and are so thankful for the fun and laughter she brings to our home.

Smile for the camera.

Oh, don't you just love the cute pink bows! I do...but Ellie doesn't.

She will do anything to get them out.

This is one of Ellie's most favorite things to do...look out the window and bark at any cat, dog or person who dares to walk by our house.The mail man has to be her arch nemesis.

Another Joy: Conference Weekend. Awww...a nice day where we can relax and stay home, listen to uplifting messages, and hang out with our family.

Grandpa loves Ellie too, even though she is a mooch pooch...

Grandpa spoils his grand-doggies.

Ellie also loves Aunt Katie...

especially her purple slippers.

Just one of thoes days...

I believe that everything happens for a reason.

We're not just tossed by the wind,

or left in the hands of fate.

But sometimes life sends a storm that's unexpected.

And we're forced to face our deepest pain.

When I feel the heartache begin to pull me under...

I dig my heels in deep, and I fight to keep my ground.

Still, at times the hurt inside me grows stronger,

and there's nothing I can do but let it out...just let me cry.

When I agreed that God could put this heart inside me,

I understood that there would be a chance that it would break.

But I know He knows exactly how I'm feeling...

and I know in time He'll take the pain away.

But for now...just let me cry.

I have felt joy, the kind that makes my heart want to sing.

And so my tears are not a surrender,

I'll feel that way again.

But for now...just let me cry.

I know it's hard to see,

but the pain I feel isn't going away today. Just let me cry.

Till every tear has fallen, don't ask when...and don't ask why.

Just let me cry.

-Hilary Weeks

Be still, my soul

I have a blessed life, I love my life. Heavenly father has given me so much to be thankful for. We have the greatest family, who would do anything for us. We have wonderful friends, who are always there for us. And I have Ryan, my most sweet husband...who I would be lost without. He is always, ALWAYS there for me...he listens to me, he wipes away all my tears, and he loves me unconditionally. And I am thankful for the knowledge I have...that my Family is Forever.

Our sweet, most precious little boy was born Jan. 29, 2011, at 25 months old. Even though he was still, I know he is mine....and I will see him again. I can't wait for the day when I can hold him again, and kiss his sweet little head. We named him Jason Kay Arnold, after Ryan's big brother. We were able to have a funeral service for him, we laid him to rest by his uncle Jason, and by his grandma and grandpa, where we can visit him often. It's hard to express everything I feel, my emotions are very unbalanced. With everything I am, I know I will be with my son again. I know that with my whole heart and will never doubt it. But, even that...doesn't stop the pain. My heart is broken, it hurts and I feel the ache everyday. I keep telling myself time will heal everything, but I honestly don't think we'll ever be normal again. There will always be a hole in our hearts till we see our son again. We know we will be together again....forever and ever. And until then, he is with the lord, and he is happy. That is what gets us through each day. That brings us peace.

There is so many amazing people out there, that are so loving and giving. Ryan's work, all went in and got us this most perfect picture, by Simon Dewey. It reminds us everyday where our precious little one is. A photographer volunteered to come to the hospital, in the middle of the night...to take pictures of our sweet Jason and we're able to get pictures of a few sweet moments with our baby. There is a support group of other mommas this has happened to, that also came to the hospital, in the middle of the night, just to let us know we are loved. They made a special keepsake box for us to take home. And Meyer's Mortuary also came with their love, they provided all their services to us for free. We received many gifts, beautiful flowers, facebook comments, and cards full of kind words, love, and support. We are truly thankful for so many people, we have felt their love and prayers in our behalf. It helps us get through this trial, to know so many people care and love us. We can never express how deeply we have been touched by your love.

"Be still, my soul; the hour is hastening on

When we shall be forever with the Lord,

When disappointment, grief, and fear are gone,

Sorrow forgot, Love's purest joys restored.

Be still, my soul; when change and tears are past,

All safe and blessed we shall meet at last."

There is no end to Glory,

There is no end to Love,

There is no end to Being,

There is no death Above.

Private.

After much thought and debating with myself, I've decided it would be best to go private. I have always tried not to post anything too personal..... just the happy moments of our life. I figured no body wanted to see the sad parts. My life is truly blessed, but even a truly blessed life has sad moments, that can't be pushed aside and ignored.

If you are interested in reading about us and our sweet little family...

We'd love to invite you.

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