The Waiting Place

In my moments alone I ask, “why me?”

  All the hospitals, doctors and tests 

The endless uncertainty 

Is a miracle too much to ask 

 When I’ve been faithful in the past?

How can I know what to do? 

Lord, won’t you show me direction?  

Show me which path leads to hope 

 From this path that I’m on to self-destruction 

Why all the suffering and pain  

When surely God has a cure? 

Pleading each time she prays, 

 “Please stop testing my weakness this way.” 

  Do my questions have answers? 

 Why has God hidden His face? 

And why has He left me alone in my waiting place? 

As we beg for peace and trust in His love  

We may not get the answers we want 

 But answers come pouring from heaven above  

And He whispers – You will know what to do 

 Just keep listening for direction  

The path is yours to choose 

 Turn your heart where I beckon  

Every question will be answered  

So don’t lose your faith  

God is here waiting with you in your waiting place 

 You are never alone in your waiting place.

 -Calee Reed

This is how I feel today. Sometimes its so hard to hold on to the little hope I have left. Each month comes and goes, with the same disappointment. Why is it so easy for others but so hard for me? I'm sorry, I don't mean to be such a downer, I'm just so heartbroken. Today my soul is sad. 

I feel like my waiting place will never end.

I know He's here with me, I am not alone. I need him more than ever today.